A New Day

"Stand at the crossroads and look,
and ask for the ancient paths,
where the good way lies; and walk in it,
and find rest for your souls."--Jeremiah 6:16

I seem to be having many more light bulb, or "aha", moments these days. I don't believe things are just happening more, but rather the more I become in tune with myself and my surroundings, the more I become aware. An awakening of sorts. Imbolc, to me, is a time of new beginnings, a time of planning; now is when we plant the seeds for future harvest...both literally and figuratively. I am certainly planting seeds at this time for my future...the new job, the beginnings of various projects, forming new bonds, etc. And as I look around me, I see those in my circle doing the same...Faith is starting a new phase in her education, John is starting his recovery, even my mother is beginning new phases in her health recovery. More importantly, however, is what I see being born all around me, that which is not of the physical. New bonds are being formed, wonderful "coming to age" in the souls of those I love around me. Many of us have felt the growing pains associated with what is happening around us, as each time we grow into a new phase there is what one friend described as "birthing pains". Quite fitting for Imbolc, as this is the time of the birthing lambs. We have spent the winter months reflecting on the previous year, preparing for the new birth of things to come. Today we give birth to those things, prepare to nurture them to fruition (or in my case...fulfillment), and plant further seeds to be harvested. Tell me, stalkers, what have you given birth to today? And what seeds are you planting in your life?

Need for Space

This was yesterday's tarot reading: Following the Hermit's example and shutting yourself away with your thoughts won't exactly provide much reassurance for those around you today, dear Donna! Thanks to the influence of the Moon, your nearest and dearest are plagued by doubts and imaginings and don't really understand your withdrawn attitude and need for solitude. They feel uncertain, imagining the worst and quickly concluding that your outward coldness is a form of rejection. So make an effort to connect with others and reassure them a little..

Uncanny! It is very hard for people in my life, especially those who see me bouncing around at festival, to understand my need for isolation and solitude. The spawn had to coerce me out of my house yesterday, and I am glad I did. But was just as glad to be back in my comfy zone alone afterwards. I've had people say, "but you're on FB all the time, what's the difference?" The difference is I am on my laptop in my comfy quiet space, and I can just shut the laptop. In a public setting, I can't just shut the screen and retreat. It is nothing personal towards anyone, it is my own personal need for space. I literally get very physically drained from being around others too long. I deal with much energy, some really not so good, at work...people are sick, people are in pain and/or dying...and for someone like me, that takes a big toll on my own energy. So those in my every day life, please try to understand. It isn't that I don't enjoy your company, it's just that I really can't physically handle it as much as I would like.

Being an introvert (and yes, as outgoing as I seem in public, I am a classic introvert) makes maintaining a LTR a bit difficult. Hell, it makes even maintaining a casual relationship difficult, lol, as most do not understand when i choose to close off for a while.